Selina’s Ramblings and Oddities: First Edition

Hello everyone. Today I thought I would write just a blog-style article about what’s been going on with me and my Hidradenitisy (it’s an adjective, I swear) life. I entitled the file name of this “blah”, because that is exactly how I feel; bleghhhhhh. Right now, my left armpit is flaring and I just feel so run down and tired. I’m just sprawled on the couch and I dare you to try and move me. Go on, try. You won’t.

It hurts to move

Yesterday I thought I was just PMSing, but alas, this morning I woke up to a flare under my arm. I guess that explains the wonderful vibes I was dealing with. You know the ones; achy, sluggish, tired, angry, moody, cranky, sad, irritable, rundown, hungry, and nauseous all at the same time. Fun!

Right now, it hurts to move and I just feel so tired and irritable. I keep going from mad to sad to being on the verge of tears to wanting to punch walls. It’s a joy, let me tell you! I called in sick to work today, which as you know, I dread with the passion of 1,000 suns (not to be dramatic or anything). Slowly I’m trying to get away from that mentality, but it’s a lot easier said than done. Come on, Selina. Your body needs rest, Selina. Don’t be mad at yourself, Selina. Listen to your damn body, Selina!!!!

I’m also kind of really upset because I’m currently without insurance and can’t go see my beloved homeboy doctor who would try and fix my flare and make me feel better. I just turned 26 years old so I’m no longer on my parent’s insurance plan and I work two different part-time jobs (you know because two part-times equal a full time, right? Yay! Math!) so I’m not offered insurance by either. This morning I put in all the info to enroll in an insurance plan from the NYS marketplace website and it’s just so confusing and so much money and it’s giving me a headache and angering me so now I’m procrastinating and writing this instead and here we are.

I haven't been great with my triggers lately

I can’t lie, the past few months I’ve been doing horrible with my triggers so I shouldn’t be surprised to get a flare. Mike and I moved into a new apartment and I am just so happy and thriving. I love decorating the apartment and we’ve been obsessed with plants so it’s starting to get jungle vibes and I’m just so happy. I won’t be fully satisfied until it’s like Uncle Monty’s in the second Series of Unfortunate Events, but baby steps. We’re almost there.

Anyway, I love my jobs and I’ve just been eating everything around me and truly not caring about gaining weight or getting flares. Shame on me, I know, I know. My friend from England also sent me a whole box of goodies and treats and I kept trying to tell myself that I’d get back on track once the box of sweets was gone, but alas, it took some time after it was fully gone to finally get back on board. It also didn’t help that I discovered the British section of Stop & Shop so now I never not want Jaffa Cakes and Wine Gums in my life.

But now I’m back on track and avoiding the Jaffa Cakes and Jelly Babies. I’m now almost two full weeks back on keto and I feel a lot better and I already feel myself losing weight. Hopefully getting fully back on it will make the flares stop.

Okay, now I really need to stop procrastinating and figure this damn insurance thing out so I can go see Dr. H. Thank you for listening to this edition of Selina’s Ramblings and Oddities. You’re a great crowd. Tip your waitress. Try the veal.